❤❤❤❤❤
When hes weird and silly and does things like this to make you smile & laugh.
You dont know..
You trust.
You get hurt.
You trust.
You get hurt.
You trust.
Your going to get hurt AGAIN, its only a matter of time. You trust people that you expect to not hurt you, but its really only a matter of time before it happens. Oddly we continue to trust & love. .
It just sucks when its the SAME FUCKING reasons over and over. I hate that he cant understand after all these years. I just accept it how his brain works and keep moving forward. Because its not worth the fight, not worth the anger or tears.
Communication
Trust
Respect
^^^^i didn’t think those were that fucking hard,
but if a good time comes along you just run with it till you get caught lying, (omission of facts) or have a mess that requires me to clean up. You dont ever think how others feel by your actions. *sigh*
Concept: a relationship where you’re both equally obsessed with one another but still respect eachothers space. There is no lack of communication or trust. Lots of sex.
Dream poly!
I don’t know why people are afraid of lust. Then I can imagine that they are very afraid of me, for I have a great lust for everything. A lust for life, a lust for how the summer-heated street feels beneath my feet, a lust for the touch of another’s skin on my skin…a lust for everything. I even lust after cake. Yes, I am very lusty and very scary.
C. JoyBell C. (via lovelustquotes)
Doing the right thing sucks
*sigh* but I understand how feelings could be hurt. Given certain circumstances, its important focus, so i do whats right. *pout* I enjoy talking to you, more than you even know, but your attention belongs else where tonight. Gotta play fair or we dont get to play. I hope wholeheartedly that things went well.
*giggles* saw this last night while out with 🐝..perfect right?!?. the only reason my coffee loving sassy self didnt get it was the other side says “queen bee” and that didnt set well with me at all. Still makes me smile… im still BUZZing from last night.
8.10.17.
I took the long way home.
I had too calm down before i could go home. The fireworks in the pic feel fitting. (Pic snagged from web) Even my fitbit shows HR spikes. *giggles*🙄
Tonight, was great. I wont write my thoughts everytime. But i try, because i like knowing how things evolve looking back.
When I got home walked in the house tonight i couldn’t help but smile. I respectfully try to hide some of the NRE,
“Your home early”
I did my normal routine. Sat down. Hubby asked how my night was and I sighed. I was beyond impressed, speechless even. Somethings floored me *giggles* hes definitely got this Rubix cube figured out.😳
The high Im on, makes me forget how scared i am of getting hurt again. But fear is normal, we have to be vulnerable to be open to receive joy and other positive enotions, no selective numbing. Maybe because the chemistry between him and I is something i havnt found in years. You cant fake chemistry. While Its hard to behave, if i had to, i WOULD just to spend time with him, our conversations flow from heart felt topics, laughter, crude jokes, and genuine concern for each others lives and family’s… he makes me feel like an awkward teenager nervous, yet ridiculously happy. I never expected to care, so much. I dont regret that i do because meeting chemistry like this is been rare in my life. 😏🙂😁
I havnt been this kind of happy in a long time. But i really like this BUZZ😏🐝
Perpetual Commotion 