Nor-cal, 33y.o, mom, wife, spoonie…. My life is one of those "had to be there" jokes. Think of it as a peek in to my mind. some NSFW/18+ only please, all most everything is a repost from other social media platform that i can relate with or love. Common topics include: Moon, Space, Coffee, Love, Depression, feelings, poly, ASD & Fibromyalgia
Polyamory
With more love comes open vulnerability, while it brings amazing highs in an overwhelming amount of joy
More love also brings more negative feelings at times and sadness
THIS is a package deal.
Im not currently alone, i am loved, but this really got me to stop and ask myself what Im doing in my current situation
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^^^Your honesty. Your laugh. Your effort. Your kisses. Your hugs…… those toođ
You donât. It isnât a game sheâs playing. She isnât manipulating, fishing for compliments, or trying to trap you. Despite what the world has taught you, she has a rare, direct honesty in the way she interacts and a pure heart that most canât recognize, let alone believe. Her insecurity only surfaces when she is trying to let someone in, donât you understand? She feels so deeply⌠it has cost her greatly in her lifetime. It is easier, safer, and much more rational to default to doubt⌠it hurts less than trust. She wonât allow herself to believe most anything unless it is explicitly said as well as shown⌠and often repeated. Years of emotional neglect does that to a person. It doesnât make her broken, but it does make her different. Her doubt isnât about you. When you pull away, it will almost always be interpreted as rejection. Itâs ok if you donât want the responsibility, believe me, the woman understands completely, and while she doesnât blame you, she also knows sheâs worth it. The little girl though? It simply makes her sad, because she peeks out of hiding so seldom, and shows glimpses of her soul to so few. Like most treasures worth owning, she is obscured from casual sight; she requires being earnestly sought. ~dd
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Words straight out of my headâŚ..
Wow. Itâs glimpses into the mind of another like this that allow me to understand. While itâs important to listen to the words spoken, itâs crucial to listen to the emotion wrapped around those words. Itâs easy to hear someone speak and assume what they mean.
Sometimes the things someone says are the rumblings of thunder from a storm. Storms take time to grow from a cloudless sky far away to a dark and angry one over you. The thunder you hear in your sky started in someone elseâs.
Whoa! So well stated.
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I recently this year came out as poly to a handfull of people. Our daughter, a few more friends, and more public in general. in a converstion i expressed this thought. forgive me if peices are missing. With that thought in the image above. We live in a world that tells us, to tell people how we feel because tomorrow is never promisedâŚ
Yet newer relationships.. we are afraid to say I love you, especially afraid to say it first, in fear of scaring the other person off, because love is huge. Some how love has gotten paired with other words like always and forever that loving someone now is scary. however, Love is non transactional. Just because one person feels that way, it does not hold the other person to an obligation to say it back. while we feel our best when we are loved in return, it still not an obligation to feel that way in return. grated it can feel like youâve been handed a fragile heart, but honesty is all you can offer, maybe you dont LOVE them but like them beyond words. that is your feelings. If they feel love for another person, then they should freely be able to express that love, it doesnât always mean forever, love doesnât mean marriage, love has sooo many different types and phases of love To tell someone you love them is just a much larger complement than telling them âhey I really like that top on you it brings out your eyesâ âi really like spending time with youâ, âi really appreciate and value our time togetherâ to tell someone you love them is much like a compliment to them and an expression of anothers feelings. we cannot control our feelings but we can control our actions. our feelings are valid. im not saying the minute NRE has you in a whirlwind of butterflies and bubbles blurt out I love you, but really think about you feelings and express with honesty and no obligation other than honesty and respect backâŚ
Perpetual Commotion 