I don’t matter in the way I want to,
to whom I want to,
when I want to
and as much as I want to.
Holy shit
6.3.18
A successful date with someone I have been talking too. We got to meet up for wings.
His transparency leaves me in shock. And feels like a trap because it’s so refreshing.
We met up for a early dinner as he as a early riser for work. My anxiety was high like normal but I calmed down after a while. After lots of rambling. I am at a point I’ll just spill my drama and crazy life and if people wanna stick around I’ll be shocked. He doesn’t seem bothered by my crazy. Only big down fall, hes never done polyamory before. That scares me a bit. Just due to my own past. But everyone’s different. He asked questions and legitimately listens.
I’d like to see where this goes. Keeping my hands to myself was hard because his hug made me weak in the knees. We fit together in the hug so well I could get lost.
Time will tell.
😂😂
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J5🎸
this reminds me of many many years ago.
I love catching up with you and hearing your many stories. Standing in my kitchen telling my kids “you have no clue how bad ass your momma really is…” and then telling them about some crazy adventure we had gone on… back when I was only a young teen.
It still echoes in the back of my mind how you told my kiddos in from of their dad… “this women right here makes dating woman now impossible, she set the bar way too high because shes the strongest, bad ass bitch I have ever known I’m damn happy to have her on my side any day of the week.” Hearing that means more than you will ever know.
I’m glad your still around, and I’m glad people that know my whole story, can look at me and say they are proud. It’s so rare to hear that in my life. So it means so much to me.
I do love you J5!
Always have and always will.
Perpetual Commotion 