My song to him….

I got a message.
And Rock bottom is a cold place to be alone.
Watching a bio parent die can destroy anyone, regrudless of what the relationship was between them. Goodbye is hard.

Kiddo (our stray) watched his bio father die monday night. He thought his fsther was dead years ago but got the call to come say goodbye….. We havent been talking but tuesday i saw him to give him his W2.

I saw the tears behind his eyes, the want for a hug in his shoulders, and i do know hes alone, he walked away from his maternal family broken from learning the same damn lessons again. And now this.

I didn’t plan to see him again, i didnt hug him Tuesday. We parted ways and tuesday night he asked if he could talk to me, he has no one. Who am i to say no.

I cant say the door is open. I cant say my arms are open, or that my heart is ready to trust but alone and broken isnt a place he needs to be.

As a family we talked, we have all grown a lot in the last year, we arent ready to open the door to him, but we can start as a friend. We all know momma bear STILL loves her cubs regrudless of the poor choices made. I do have to protect the home, the youngest who dosnt understand, but this momma bear is meeting kiddo tomorrow.

Hes watched his father die, he works a emotionally draining job, and he is alone. No amount of money can buy human connection.
I dont know the last time my boys been hugged. But tomorrow i plan on fixing that. Its not a welcome back, its not a please come home. But its lets start over. Show me your becoming a man of your word. Fix the wrongs you’ve done and lets try.

I’m emotional.
But I’m being very careful.

Life can be crazy.
But tomorrow is never promised.
In the end of the day its not what we have, but how we loved.