I left my comfort zone and went to a comedy improve show. The special guest was an ex partner of mine but our friendship has become more stable in where we stand, I wanted to go to show my support.

His eyes always light up when he sees me, everytime since we broke up, and that has always made me feel special. That spark missing was one of the reason we broke up just about a year ago. It’s a rare thing to me. I dont feel that special or that someone is that happy to see me. The last few times I’ve seen that spark It makes me feel so special.

I laughed a lot, didnt even come put of my skin when my name was said.. . I had beer.. which I don’t normally drink. And I really enjoyed myself. I knew when I left it was the right time to leave I didnt need to be getting comfortable and drunk in that situation. My head need be clearly on my shoulders.

I didn’t feel completely out cast like I normally do. They are very much his people but for the first time ever among his people, I didnt feel like an outsider looking in.