Whoa!

Something small like a headache shouldn’t ever end up with a frenzy of dr and nurse’s and a team speiclist wondering what the best plan is…. ALIVE is the best plan…. and that still had a maybe attached. It all came down to one ER Dr. Who listened to me when i gave the detials and realized this isnt a normal headache. Admitted, OR avoided (barely) discharged, with more labs and CT scans.

Im home, but I can’t begin to tell you how scary this weekend was. LIFE…is one monkey wrench moment to the next. And most of my life, my health is one wrong step from a cliff dive. DR House….. is he available please.

With Grandbaby due, Huge IEP meeting coming, huge changes & accomplishments made in my financial world, wonderful growth in my home realtionships, goals and adventures lay ahead, I think the only thing I’m missing is my poly life…. the additional companionship and laughter over good food, under stars, or on a hike. I miss dating. I miss that human connection of feeling at home, in someone else, whom i dont share a home with but the General connection of cheering eachother on, laughing, and supporting eachothers struggles. Hugs, kisses and just knowing your on someones mind amidst the crazy daily, and the simplest of thoughts makes you smile… because i still laugh out loud at chicken strippers, (even if I’m laughing alone) I find this connection so rare. I’ve been there before. I’ll be there again.

Until then, Tomorrow more tests, another day, progress to be made, I’m here, and I’ll enjoy every bit i can.

Changes and current events

So I was sorta seeing someone for about a month. Will call him (WM-boy). He got WAY more attached then I and well, it super complicated things. He was younger than i, by more than I should have a tempted to date. And his life goals and drive where completely non-existent. My life has so much drive, demand, chaos, he just was too damn needy for me. We still text for now. But the physical is over.

Last night pop had to go to ER. COPD complacations. Hes being kept and treated should be fine. I was there till 330a alone with pop. Kids and hubby asleep at home. And WM-BOY despite breaking up the same fucking day, texted with me until I got home safely. That’s the kind of care I want in a BF. I just need someone who’s trying to thrive in life not sitting having tea with depression until they have someone else to have tea with. *sigh*

As for “eyes”, no contact all weekend…. Monday is half over and I got nothing. BFF says let it go if I don’t hear from him by end of day monday. And I won’t lie not texting him sucks. I kinda saw way more potential there than I probably should have. *sigh*

Guess that mean I’m mono, for now. And that’s fine too. He and I have spent small chunks of time being playful and *in* love. Even our teens are grossed out by our love. Hehe.

I expect this week to be crazy. We shale see.
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