Laying in bed with my love.

He wanted to talk, catch up. Its Been such a crazy week. And being apart for 4days wasn’t easy. I shared a song that made me think of him this week. Shared parts of converstions, thoughts and emotions. Did my homework for Monday’s appoinemnt, and just spent time together.

We are in such a better place together now. And this week has been a test to all the changes we have made.

I think the most touching thing said tonight,

“You told me your scared, but i am too, im happy to see you eyes sparkle again, i know you’ve miss him. But remeber the break up didnt just effect you alone last time, so yes im scared too.”

I cant ask for a more loving supportive husband. Our crazy life is never short of a realty tv show. He listens to my happiness, and comforts my sadness. Celebrates my joys and protects my broken peices.

Current update

So i had that awesome coffee date turn dinner. We shall call him WILTON..until a better nickname sticks. we clicked sooo well. Im mind blown how nervous i was going, but i walked in saw him. Hugged and we started talking all my nervousness was gone. I was transparent shared my IG with him so his wifey could scope me out. I dont want waves or to be a thorn in anyones side.
well… something pulled the plug on things until they feels they are stable. I bowed down, nothing personal i get it. I kinda saw it coming. Just sucked we clicked so well.

As for Tower and I.
I had a few issues. NRE prematurely died, somethings needed addressed and i needed to express my dislikes. I suck at communication when emotional so i typed a long , organized my thoughts and shared. Took me days to do so i didnt expect an answer. Only time and physically showing me he got what i meant would change things.
I have more transparency now from him, hes going through a lot, his lifes been a little messy, but sees how important effort is for me, for us.
Today we talked, cuddles and re connected. I feel a lot better. We shall see whay transpires from here.

Bestie & hubby are over Tower and I. They feel hes spread to thin and i deserve more than he can give. But they support my choices to see what comes from change.

Hubby and i are well. Hes been fallowing my kink blog and has learned a few need tricks. Hes super supportive of a 4 day trip im fixing to take with sis. We are good. And i like when we are good!

Happy heart for the moment

Patient

Things where going good. High on NRE. Then she came along and went from friend to gf in record speed.
Now she has your time on the weekends, sometimes evenings on weekdays too.
One day a week for 4 hrs if im lucky.
Conversations have lessened
Im scared i fell into another trap.
We shall see

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