Habits

I tend to get in a routine. I like comfortable. Safe. Secure.

But I know I enjoy connections, going out, doing, pushing limits of my own anxiety and norms.

I am happy in My …. ummm not sure what it is.. but I’ll call it a relationship because so many levels apply with that word.

Hubby and I are also in a good place.

I have had someone asking to meet me for weeks now. And to be honest I haven’t wanted to at all, moody and depression and more than anything I’m happy and I dont want any waves to change that. But that’s not how life works. Nor is it healthy. Defantly not the way poly works for me. But monogamous norms try to pull me in to comfortable.

So I have dinner plans friday. Meeting a new person. Facing my anxieties and being social for my own good.

I see my Panda on Sunday and his Wife, which I’m over the moon excited about. In a more platonic situation, I do so miss him.

This years been quiet a rollercoaster. So let see what craziness the last 53 days hold.