Huge night
Oh my poly friends/fallowers i had to share. I went to a birthday party for my ….. no label…. and all his poly peeps were there. I dont mingle and i dont like my poly-cule bubbles tounching, i like my relationships (bubbles) solo. but i knew it would mean a lot to him if i could overcome anxiety and come to his birthday party…..
Lots and lots on anxiety meds, bff pep talk and i did it. I went for 3 hrs
My favorite part was catching him watching me to make sure i was okay, from across the room. His smile was like a comforting hug.
He walked me out and shared how much he appreciated me coming. Another speical night.
Whats a label?
For me its always brought forth a level of understanding, some kind of commitment, connection, comfort.
This dont have a label. Currently its two people really interested in eachother. Butterflies and NRE, Crazy life’s, making time when we can, and it gets phyical every other time we see eachother because the chemistry pops!
I’m not a gf, yet it dont feel casual to either of us. I understand his limits, restriction and respect them. He “gushes” about me to his others. I could comfortably call him a bf, im mostly content with what this is. ( to early for some things like kink talked have yet to try)
so… hubby calls him my bf, 2 friends whom know im polyamorous call him my bf……
Titles just comfort me. But his hugs and kisses comfort me, him listening, his friendship…. and i think I’ll just keep enjoying what i got in the moment.
My ♘
I dont talk about my primary live partner often but he and i have been together 15 years and I have been poly for maybe 8 years. He is mono by his choice.
We talked alot over the years about how i have always been poly but never understood or knew it was a possibility or even healthy.
We haven’t told the kids yet. Mainly because failed monogamy in my teen years is what i feel helped me understand what i want and need.
As for dating…. I had a long term 3 yr thing that ended last march… Nothings stuck since
one thing that has stuck I love my lion with every fiber of my body and soul. He has taught me. Unconditional love like no other.
The meeting
Tonight hubby came home from work. Wanted to go to dinner. I didnt have anything in mind. He asked me to invite Tower. WHAT, ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?
Hubby is mono and i am poly. And his interest in meeting tower shocked me. Tower normally has plans on Saturdays so i expected a no but asked via text. And holy crap dinner plans landed.
BJ restaurant 😂😂😂oh the humor knowing my Oral fixation. Hubby wanted to sit across from tower and i and so we did. I as so nervous because hubby is harsh and brass and and asshole to most before u get ef to know him…. Kinda like shrek. Layers. But it went really well.
Dinner went well. Hubby and tower are both super sleepy so im up late solo enjoying the happiness And i am on Cloud 9.
Late night texts can make your whole day
Nothing feels better than hearing someone really likes you. For who you are. Nothing else. And that they take the time to tell you that.
When I feel I can be myself, depression, chronic pain, anxiety disorder, autoimmune issues. 100% myself I don’t feel judged
I feel pretty, yet not just eye candy. My mind is just as pretty.
Everything is so new. But enjoying every second. Because honestly it’s so rare to click with someone like this.
Tuesday won’t get here soon enough 😊
Perpetual Commotion 