WTF
We struggle to make plans. I move some of my plans around to see you, your excited you say…. and you stop replying to my texts the day of….. WTF is this shit. 🤔
2 fun nights out
Tacos and 3 hr chat with panda Sunday night was super awesome i have missed him. And the night ended with a kiss *awww*
And tonight (monday) ended with a last min invite to see the most random fucking movie with J5. My poly life makes him uneasy with our history, and his bad blood with hubby.. which is completely squashed. So i cleared the air that i love him and would never try to re-light anything more than friends because his friendship matters far more to me than anything and i learned the hard way and lost some important people.
Wednesday is my wedding anniversary I brought heels for our dinner date.
And if i get to see thumper this week would just be a cherry on top.
I was given a nickname today
Blunt but honest
Someone I’ve been talking with we’ve expressed interest in wanting more. I was so blunt and honest. Which was a breath of fresh air for me .
What i said was
“Speaking bluntly. The only resistance or hesitation you will find is my own insecurities from old wounds, Otherwise I’m very interested, im looking forward to getting to know you more and working our way that direction. As for boundaries, I dont know that they are boundaries per se, I date. I dont do hookups. My wounds are people being all talk, sweet & sappy, only to want the physical parts. I give my poly relationships the same respect, and honesty and effort as a traditional relationship. I expect that returned.
I’m not one to be as blunt as i should be but i was tonight. I guess I’m really done with how things have been and I’m trying really hard to be the change i wanna see in my own life.
Someone new I’m talking to said this to me. It funny how the simplest of things matter
Perpetual Commotion 