I have been feeling low self confidence. And fighting a cold, Gained some weight back, feeling crummy. While talking to this new guy 3 days now (will call him eyes) I shared that my 10am meeting got pushed back to 11a
Eyes told me his 10-11a canceled
I never put myself out there to be shot down but I said fuck it and text
āDamn that would be a good time to meet for coffee if I wasnāt just getting over a coldā
Eyes reply :āWe could still, I donāt care about colds Itās not like we will be making outā
My heart does a high dive back flip into my stomach. Did I just get accepted? And he wants a friendship first. Sweet!
Eyes asked āstarbucks?ā
āDefinitely but youāll have to be a little more specific thereās like 500 of them bad boysā as I laughed out loud in walmart. I was there buying make up. Trying to pick up my own self esteem but damn eyes accepting my invite put a pep in my step and a spark in my smile.
We set up to meet at 10a, I picked a small box starbucks w/ only patio seating. Makes for less awkward inside or outside choices and open air and sunlight.
Fix my hair, make up, and out the door.
*forgets anxiety meds & hard candy*
Talk to my BFF on the way
āOmg Iām going to coffee with hot guyā
Safety convo like normal and I let her go.
He pulls in, I knew it was him. I wait for him to get to the patio. He looks so confused by the no inside only walk up window. Itās a cute look on him. Heās wearing the same shirt as the picture he sent me. I walk up and he opens his arms to hug me. Like an old friend he hasnāt seen in a while. *giggles* Warm hug exchanged. And we order drinks.
I was raised going Dutch is the right thing to do. But I order my drink pull out my sbux card and he adds his drink to.the order and pays. This sends my mind spinning. I am so not used to this. He gave them his name for the order. I just smiled.
We sit down and talk. He seems so relaxed like heās known me forever. Iām a ball of nerves. He gets both our drinks when the barista calls him.
He put his phone face down, listens to me babble about my kids & family. His eyes peirce me but I want to just stare. Heās so handsome in person. I wanted to touch him. 1040a I had to go to catch my 11a appointment I so didnāt want to leave.. I could have spent the whole day with him.
He walks towards the parking lot telling me how great it was to meet me. Hugs me and tells me āIād kiss you but your still getting over that coldā *splash goes the heart again* āya I donāt need to share my cooties with yaā I laughingly respond.
I think this high will last the day. Iām gunna try to just enjoy it. Because this could be awesome.
Eyes and I started talking 9/6 he is in a open marriage 15yrs 2 kids this could work out well. But is this another too good to be true again? Also local dating is new always been long distance and it sounds like his wife likes the idea of meeting and handing out with the others partners only time will tell